Trying not to be online too much the last few days because watching my fellow citizens be murdered is bad for my mental health. I was honestly struggling with whether or not it makes sense to come on and do a cute lil card draw when all this is happening, but I did, because this is literally how I cope with things.

And the cards, as usual, did not disappoint.

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Our card for this week is:

Nine of Swords

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Never have I felt so validated by a card pull.

The message of the Nine of Swords is that this week it is important that you let yourself feel it. Feel the tragedy and the heartbreak and all of the "what the fuck" this moment brings with it. The feelings are uncomfortable, and it's tempting in so many ways to ignore them and rush past them into action, or even worse, back to business as usual.

That is not the way.

The other message of the Nine of Swords is that you aren't alone.

In these "unprecedented times" we have ancestors and spirit guides who have seen this before and worse.

I've been hearing a lot in the astrology world about Neptune and Saturn entering Aries or something - and the last time that happened was the American Civil War (apparently. Please remember that in terms of astrology I do not know what I am talking about At. All. )

But it does make me feel a bit better when I can remember that these aren't necessarily unprecedented times. Because this has happened before, in many countries, in many ways. Our ancestors fought it (and perpetrated it, let's be honest) and survived it.

We're not alone now, and we're not alone throughout history.

So what do we do?

1. Be honest with yourself and others. When people say "hi! how are you?" don't smile and say "i'm great! you?" Be honest about how you are feeling. Own your feelings and let them know that they're not crazy for feeling awful too. Name your emotions, and treat yourself like you would any friend who was having a hard time - with care, and consideration. Stop pushing yourself to perform "Happy, Healed Woman Who Has It All Together."
2. Ask for help this week. Find people to talk to, ask for space, consideration, and love. If you're feeling lost, overwhelmed and like you "don't know what you can do"? Ask for help figuring out how *you* can help. So many people are sharing resources right now that you can use without having to do the research on your own. One that I've found helpful is 5calls.org - it gives you the phone numbers to your government representatives so that instead of yelling at your stupid conservative friends on Facebook you can yell at your senators, who might actually be able to do something. If you have another resource that's been helping you take action, please respond and share it with me! I'd love to have more.
3. Pray, Meditate, Chanel or otherwise commune with your ancestors and spirit guides. I'll put together an easy guide for how you can do that and share it tomorrow. In the meantime, know you can just ask them for help. Sometimes I like to just change the lyrics to that song from Mulan: "Ancestors, hear my plea: help me ______" Bonus points if it rhymes.

I'm sorry if this generally fun and whimsical email added some weight to your Monday, but I think the weight was there already, right? And the last thing I want to do is show up pretending everything is fine when it's not. (See item 1 on the above list of recommended actions).

I love you, and I hope this helps.

If you need additional support, or want your own personal tarot reading this week, respond to this email and I'll gift you one for free!

<3 Megan

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